Fantasize About Future
Nov. 4th, 2003 09:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mishalakI had a couple cups of tea while I was working today because I was very tired out after three stressful days of work. Which is unusual because I cannot afford several cups of tea a day, it is not in the budget. I have to scrimp and save in crazy ways to be able to afford my fannish lifestyle. (Which would make a good filk song. "How do you afford your fannish lifestyle. How do you pay for the conventions that you go to.")
So I started to think about what I want out of life. From simple things to large ones.
I want to be able to have tea or not, without having to think about it. A cup of fine Darjeeling, followed by something fruity from Celestial Seasonings, or not as I please. Simple food things like that. I have enough right now to live on and I also have enough to eat out on occasion since that is on my socializing budget. I would not like
After that it gets more complex. Food is simple; work isn’t because I have little idea of something I emphatically want to do for a living. I’m going to try for a civil service job. I would like something that pays moderately well but without extra hours when I need to be at conventions or fan meetings. Or else it’ll have to have something else going for it that is really good so I don’t mind that I miss lots of my social events. Like a flight attendant job which pays well and has the travel benefits, so I think that would make up for the often strange work hours.
In a really ideal world I would have enough time to make a graceful home and enough money for that. A small house I could work on and make a reflection of my peculiar obsessions. Maybe a beehive or two if I have the space. A fruit tree, maybe even a espalier peach against a rock wall.
Love would be grand. Someone to be my partner in crime, so to speak. Not someone exactly like me, but with enough interests in common that we’d enjoy doing things together. Though I’m shy around large groups I quite enjoy talking with just one person for hours.
So there is a bit of a simple dream. My next steps are to return to my boyfriend search with new techniques and to take a civil service test for Colorado. And maybe make some inquiries with friends about jobs and new friends.
So I started to think about what I want out of life. From simple things to large ones.
I want to be able to have tea or not, without having to think about it. A cup of fine Darjeeling, followed by something fruity from Celestial Seasonings, or not as I please. Simple food things like that. I have enough right now to live on and I also have enough to eat out on occasion since that is on my socializing budget. I would not like
After that it gets more complex. Food is simple; work isn’t because I have little idea of something I emphatically want to do for a living. I’m going to try for a civil service job. I would like something that pays moderately well but without extra hours when I need to be at conventions or fan meetings. Or else it’ll have to have something else going for it that is really good so I don’t mind that I miss lots of my social events. Like a flight attendant job which pays well and has the travel benefits, so I think that would make up for the often strange work hours.
In a really ideal world I would have enough time to make a graceful home and enough money for that. A small house I could work on and make a reflection of my peculiar obsessions. Maybe a beehive or two if I have the space. A fruit tree, maybe even a espalier peach against a rock wall.
Love would be grand. Someone to be my partner in crime, so to speak. Not someone exactly like me, but with enough interests in common that we’d enjoy doing things together. Though I’m shy around large groups I quite enjoy talking with just one person for hours.
So there is a bit of a simple dream. My next steps are to return to my boyfriend search with new techniques and to take a civil service test for Colorado. And maybe make some inquiries with friends about jobs and new friends.
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Date: 2003-11-05 07:39 am (UTC)One of the biggest difficulties in finding work one even likes, say nothing about loves, is that it is so hard to find out what kinds of jobs exist.
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Date: 2003-11-05 08:28 am (UTC)Although, if you included a list of what, exactly, you'd like to receive in a care package, it couldn't hurt...
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Date: 2003-11-05 08:10 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2003-11-05 08:08 pm (UTC)In other news I spent the whole budget today at Cub Foods. They're doing this going out of business thing here in Denver, so I stocked up on things like frozen food. I shouldn't have to spend much else for the rest of the month and then next month I'll be able to spend less than normal.