Fandom Saved My Life
Oct. 18th, 2003 12:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mishalakA Tale of Convention Going and How I Found Fandom
I think Spike (well whoever wrote those particular lines) is right in a larger sense. We all need the things that tie us to life, our friends, things to look forward too, a place where we are needed, and so on. For me most of that can be summed up in fandom, but I didn't find this social group until I was nearly 21.
I have been fannish for the vast majority of my life; I just didn't know that is what I was. I read a heck of a lot and watched all sorts of science fiction. My first convention was a Star Trek convention that I attended my freshman year in high school. I was so geeky then that a fellow geek from my school criticized me saying I shouldn't dress so buttoned down even on the weekends (my school had a dress code). But though I had fun I didn't feel connected to my fellow geeks and though I did look I didn't find what I wanted there. More geek friends, people to socialize with on a regular basis.
For just short of five years I continued to go to Starcon, Starfest, and various gaming conventions without making permanent friends or even hearing about the local fannish convention, MileHiCon. I just continued to hang out with the few people interested in science fiction at school and college. Then February of 1999 I went to Genghis Con, a gaming convention, while feeling rather blue and lonely I decided to help out with the art show. There I was told about this group called DASFA and that they met monthly at this bank. The next month I showed up and was immediately drawn deeply into the group. I was Secretary of the club in three months (by appointment), elected to that position the next year, and Director of the club the year after that. It was like coming home.
It is my deeply felt conviction that being part of fandom anchored me to life like nothing else ever had. That it is not an exaggeration to say that fandom saved my life. It's is then very strange that despite going to conventions that though I wanted to find something like fandom I managed not to find it for nearly half a decade.
I went to some conventions, but they were not of the essentially fannish variety nor did I hear about fandom at them. From the time I was in high school I regularly went to the local Star Trek con and also various gaming conventions. But until I went to Genghis Con and volunteered with the art show I never heard of organized fandom.
This is why one of my overriding goals is to spread the word about fandom. Because I know there are people out there just like me that could use fandom, that would love fandom, that need fandom to tie them to the world and just have not heard about it. I want to give back what I have received. And that is something to take joy in, a reason to go on living through the bad times, because I know that every month there will be a new party, and every year there will be another great convention.
Here endeth my speech.
"Every Slayer has a death wish, even you. The only reason you've lasted as long as you have is you've got ties to the world... your mum, your brat kid sister, the Scoobies. They all tie you here but you're just putting off the inevitable. Sooner or later, you're gonna want it. And the second, the second that happens...You know I'll be there. I'll slip in... have myself a real good day. Here endeth the lesson." -Spike, Buffy TVS: Fool For Love
I think Spike (well whoever wrote those particular lines) is right in a larger sense. We all need the things that tie us to life, our friends, things to look forward too, a place where we are needed, and so on. For me most of that can be summed up in fandom, but I didn't find this social group until I was nearly 21.
I have been fannish for the vast majority of my life; I just didn't know that is what I was. I read a heck of a lot and watched all sorts of science fiction. My first convention was a Star Trek convention that I attended my freshman year in high school. I was so geeky then that a fellow geek from my school criticized me saying I shouldn't dress so buttoned down even on the weekends (my school had a dress code). But though I had fun I didn't feel connected to my fellow geeks and though I did look I didn't find what I wanted there. More geek friends, people to socialize with on a regular basis.
For just short of five years I continued to go to Starcon, Starfest, and various gaming conventions without making permanent friends or even hearing about the local fannish convention, MileHiCon. I just continued to hang out with the few people interested in science fiction at school and college. Then February of 1999 I went to Genghis Con, a gaming convention, while feeling rather blue and lonely I decided to help out with the art show. There I was told about this group called DASFA and that they met monthly at this bank. The next month I showed up and was immediately drawn deeply into the group. I was Secretary of the club in three months (by appointment), elected to that position the next year, and Director of the club the year after that. It was like coming home.
It is my deeply felt conviction that being part of fandom anchored me to life like nothing else ever had. That it is not an exaggeration to say that fandom saved my life. It's is then very strange that despite going to conventions that though I wanted to find something like fandom I managed not to find it for nearly half a decade.
I went to some conventions, but they were not of the essentially fannish variety nor did I hear about fandom at them. From the time I was in high school I regularly went to the local Star Trek con and also various gaming conventions. But until I went to Genghis Con and volunteered with the art show I never heard of organized fandom.
This is why one of my overriding goals is to spread the word about fandom. Because I know there are people out there just like me that could use fandom, that would love fandom, that need fandom to tie them to the world and just have not heard about it. I want to give back what I have received. And that is something to take joy in, a reason to go on living through the bad times, because I know that every month there will be a new party, and every year there will be another great convention.
Here endeth my speech.