My Life

[mishalak]

Sometimes I let my hopes go soaring far beyond the grey walls of my life. For a while I let myself think that for no rational reason I could end up loving and being loved. It isn't true, of course. It isn't true because I write things like this, whiny self absorbed tracts and when it comes right down to it I am both too picky and not attractive enough to ever hook up with any sane person. So what I need to do is find a job that I can tolerate and just get out of my parents' house, because that is the best I can hope for.

Fortunately it is coming sooner rather than later. My mom didn't have to have as serious of surgery as they had thought so therefore she'll be recovered in virtually no time flat and I don't have to spend the next two months helping her around the house. So back to job hunting looking for a job for a morose bookkeeper.

Comments

[elenbarathi.livejournal.com]

"I am both too picky and not attractive enough to ever hook up with any sane person."

Picky you may be - and that's no bad thing - but judging by your user-pics you're very attractive, and judging by your writing, you're also intelligent, thoughtful, honest and kind, which count for a whole lot more than mere physical beauty. So don't give up hope, 'kay?

*wry grin* How come all the gorgeous, brilliant, admirable young men (both gay and straight) of my acquaintance - and there are quite a few, let me tell you - think they're Doomed To Be Forever Alone because they're not attractive enough? If you're not attractive enough to find a mate, most of the rest of the world must have no chance at all.

I'm glad to hear that your Mom is okay. Getting your own place and a job you like will do all kinds of good things for your self-image and your general outlook on life, which can only make you more attractive than you already are.

"Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass."
~Max Ehrmann

[mishalak.livejournal.com]

Looks are only good for having lots of sex you regret later. Meanwhile I have the personality of a cactus. I'm prickly, difficult, and when something is new or exciting I drive people off with my burst of excessive enthusiasm.

[mjlayman.livejournal.com]

I admit I don't usually value people by looks, but if I was 20 years younger and you were het, I'd be interested in you -- you're smart and funny. I'm sure there's some gay guys who will be interested in you. Maybe you should stop looking and see who turns up. In the meantime, a job is a good thing.

[mishalak.livejournal.com]

The funny thing is that only people who are safely het, older, or more than a thousand miles away say things like that about me. The universal factor with all these, they don't have the fear that I might actually take them at their word.

[mjlayman.livejournal.com]

Pffffft. Look at all those guys who reply to your posts with half-naked icons. They clearly think you're attactive.

[julesjones]

I have the personality of a cactus, and I've been happily married for twelve years. Don't give up just yet.

Glad to hear your mum's doing better than expected.

[elenbarathi.livejournal.com]

"I'm prickly, difficult, and when something is new or exciting I drive people off with my burst of excessive enthusiasm."

Awell, these aren't such terrible traits; certainly not enough to outweigh your many good traits. People with far more serious character-flaws find love, and so may you; someone who doesn't mind your prickliness, is patient when you're being difficult, and finds your enthusiasms exhilarating rather than 'excessive'.

[mishalak.livejournal.com]

If my love life were a horse it would have been shot for glue two years ago.