Automobile Nervosa

Yesterday (Sunday) I was just plain lazy. I got to brunch late and then when I could not hang out with my friend Jane Campbell right away I just went home and lazed around my apartment. I did get quite a bit of reading in, but otherwise it was a nearly 100% unproductive day.

I did have a bit of a crisis over selling my car on Saturday. The fellow, who had said he was interested in seeing it at 5, decided that he was going to a theme park instead. Somehow I doubt he's serious about the purchase. I was terribly annoyed at this and it brought up all the negative feelings about having to sell my White Ghost.

I am not terribly attached to my old car, but I hate the fact that I have to go to the trouble of selling it. Having to sell something is something I'm not terribly effective at doing. I tend to see the negative, so it is rather hard for me to talk up the positive.

So I've been feeling crazed a bit since then with this thing looming over me, metaphorically. I'm going to have a cup of tea soon and hope that will restore me, I really don't like the sense that my bones are going to jump out of my skin at any moment.

In other news I watched Gormenghast with Jane and that perhaps was not the best choice. I really loved the production and I might have talked it up a bit too much, Jane didn't like it as well. Well I'll just try to think of this as experience and know that she likes definite good guys that we love and bad guys that we hiss rather than weird ambiguous stories.

Behind the Glass

elisem is my favorite livejournal personage. Every time she writes something she inspires me to write something about my own life. Here she was writing about feeling like an outsider due to her difficulty hearing what people are saying in group conversations. And that has inspired me to write for a bit about the subject.

( Parties, Outsiders, & Worlds of Thought )